When God molds and opens opportunities

When I graduated March 25, 2007, I didn't have anything in mind but to review for the Licensure Examination for Teachers. I thought, I can better start with any job that comes along the way if I'm already a professional license carrier. There's a greater chance of getting hired to any institution, higher compensation and greater opportunities for promotion, privileges and other advantages.

But that plan was twisted when God showered me with good breaks. I already had my application form that time and the only thing left to do is to pay for the 2-month weekends review in my Alma Mater when Kuya Aldwin sent me an e-mail telling me to be his partner for supervising an adolescent reproductive health research project in Region VI. He told me about the benefits and the advantages of indulging in this activity and the things I needed to do. Besides, it's research and it means new learning, new experiences, new adventure -and that's priceless.

So, I kept my application form and prepared for the activity.

Leaving for Iloilo, I left my application letter and credentials at our Municipal Trial Court in Cities. I was applying as an office clerk. Yes, just an office clerk. But mulling over the fact that it is a national office, funded by the Supreme Court, there are fringe benefits.

It was an opportunity God opened through a mentor who has been there for me ever since we knew each other in college. That was my very first job application and I didn't imagine myself having endorsements from the President of my school, from a retired Chief Parole and Probation officer III and the President of the Philippines.

Still, those were through the unselfish efforts of one dynamic mentor - well not just in academics but also in politics, life and love. I owe her a lot.

Unfortunately, the Supreme Court didn't declare the position vacant yet so my application in the office is chilled for a while.

Later, it was already August 3, 2007 - Friday - my grandmother died and I was a 90-kilometer trip away from home, still on research. I didn't have any other option but to pursue the researchers to do everything by themselves and to just update me for problems and questions. I badly needed to go home.

God was great! He moved the heart and hands of the researchers and everything went cool.

About grandma's death, though its a sad time for our family, we saw it as another opportunity. An opportunity to help other loved ones and the community around us to see the true meaning of life. Help them know the God of provision and promotion and help them change their outlook on death.

Now, it's 2 weeks after the funeral. No doubt, everything changed here at home after the burial of my grandma. But, she left us with a business. Because of how we "celebrated" her promotion to a better place of setting up a tarp wrapped with photos of blissful memories with her family, using balloons and ribbons and of making a colorful program prints filled with songs and laughter, people came and proposed transactions!

Now we have partners from few institutions for designs, lay-outs and prints. God's so cool isn't it?

While we were yet starting with this graphic designing business and while looking forward for the board exam, my cousin from Laguna, who is a Pastor's wife, called me up one morning and told me about another research project. Now its focused on the socioeconomic and psychosocial status of market vendors below poverty line in Mindanao. My function is to facilitate the workshops and document the proceedings, and make a report. This will start sometime in September.

This is a complimentary project under the Mindanao Basic Urban Services Sector Project (MBUSSP) of DILG with Asian Development Bank as its donor. Considering the job, I can already help my mother and my brother spend for the education of my my younger brother in the Technological University of the Philippines - Visayas taking up Electronics and Communications Engineering and my younger sister who is a special science class high school student.

What do I do now? Shall I hit 2 birds with one stone? Or shall I say 3 birds. By October we will have a Adolescent Reproductive Health Advocacy National Convention in Cebu City for another set of projects for the coming year.

Indeed, When God opens opportunities, you'd go dizzy choosing where to land and I will always be thankful to God and for how He molded me in the 16 years of formal education through the utmost support, love and sacrifice of my parents and of the inspiration of friends, relatives and church family. Worth were all the sacrifices in college. I graduated with honors and it brought me to being an awardee as an outstanding youth of our city (April 13, 2007) apart from my extra-curricular activities and services. My mother was also awarded as outstanding mother of the city. Thanks to the Kababaihang Rizalista Incorporada Kapisanang Pandaigdig, Inc. for such an award. It was then my first chance to be published on Visayan Daily Star. -lol-

Now, the only requirement for me to discern what to choose and what to pursue is through praying for wisdom - practical discernment. As James 1:5 says, "If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him."

And with all these, I praise the name of the Lord, express my deepest gratitude to my late father and my ever-protective mother and I humble myself.

On photos: [just click on it for a better view] Top The author receiving his diploma.
Bottommost (left to right) Eddie Yap (grandfather), Marisses Tampo (mother), Noel Yap (uncle), the author

LET day: there's nothing wrong with failing

The Board Examination is done and finally, I'm out of the pressure.

It was tough, honestly. Especially, I wasn't able to review formally and seriously. I only read few notes the night before doom's day. I used my remaining cell phone load balance to ask for prayers once again from my relatives and from church family.

I was really desperate for their intercession that night because I was a bit losing hope and my heart's pounding fast with the pressure.

But thankfully, God provided me with a loving community who encouraged me to climb the mountain and surpass the shadow of fear.

Hear are few of the text messages I received:

"Whatever mountain stands in your path, whatever obstacle blocks your way, whatever difficulty immobilizes you, the prayer of faith can remove it! Praying for you. God bless!"
- cindy

"I'm praying for you, ta."
-tita ging

"Ok manong. I'll pray for you gid."
-sarah joy

"Kung ari ka lang di, himuan ta gid ka banner!"
(I'll make you a banner if you're here!)
-cindy


These are only few of the messages.

It made me cry inside my room realizing how I am blessed with these people. I thought, If my insufficiency in reviewing my lessons can't pass this exam, their ways of uplifting my heart and for their inspiration can. Well, apart from those who prayed for me in the blogosphere.

Through this, I fortified my strong belief in investing my life in people who are God-fearing and promising.

Thank you so much.

LET day. I am an hour travel from my examination venue so I rode a PUB at 4:30 in the morning. The bus was having very few passengers but then decided to depart knowing about the exam.

Later on the trip, 2 of my batch rode the bus and there the chattering started. Until few moments passed and our bus was loaded with examinees from different places and many of them are my classmates. "Hi's", laughs and smiles filled the ride until we arrived at the venue.

It was cool that we had good laughs before taking the mind-stirring 6-hour examination.

Thanks to the jesters!

On set. I can't remember anything on the process of the testing except for those entries that confused me a lot. Especially when it comes to philosophies and the philosophers. Besides that, I really had difficulty over those test items that I haven't encountered when I was yet schooling.

Funny "ini mini may ni mo" was popular that day except for situational questions which needed practical discernment.

Finally. Headache was the aftermath. I felt the back part of my brain was screwed up that when I got home, I immediately dozed off. -whew-

Acceptance. I am expecting the unexpected regarding the results of the examination. I mean failing. I know now that it will be easy for me to look at results on the mainstream press even though my name may not be there.

After all, there's nothing wrong with failing. Anyway, the board exam is still there scheduled every year.

If you think

I got this set of pictures from my brother's email inbox when he requested me to open it. And to compliment those who blogged about contentment, let me share this with you.

"Contentment is not the fulfillment of what you want; it is the realization of how much you already have."

I got this quote from Jackie.

If you think you are unhappy, look at them.

If you think your job is tough, how about him?

If you think your salary is low, how about this kid's?

If you think you don't have many friends, ask yourself if you have one sincere friend.

You think study is a burden? How about her?

When you feel like giving up, think of this man.

If you think you suffer in life, do you suffer as much as he does?

If you complain about your transport system, how about them?

If your society is unfair to you, look at her.

Think positively and count your blessings. You have many things and aspects in your life to be grateful for.

Now if you think life is unfair, think of these people.

Join efforts to care for those in need

The battle in 3 days.

The Licensure Examination for Teachers (LET) is coming up fast and I can already feel the pressure - the squeezing I once experienced when I was yet filing for the Board. I never had felt of needing much prayers from my friends than now. Every time I'm OL, I'm in the community and in the church, I can't stop my self from asking for prayers from friends and my church family and from anyone across the globe.

Gratefully, I was talking a while with my cousin from Laguna and she told that their church prayed for me. My teachers from our school also told that they'll do the same. Also my own church family and our sending churches. Not to forget, my blogging friends also left a word here that they'll also include me in their prayers.

These really gave me a lift so I really really thank you so much from the bottom of my heart.

Indeed, we need others in this world full of shadows of grief, anxiety and pressure. "No man is an island" as we often reiterate it.

I came across a statement from Morrie from a the book "Tuesdays with Morrie" by Mitch Albom. He said that in the beginning of life, when we were infants, we need others to survive and at the end of life, when we are already near death, we need others to survive." But there's one secret he was using and maybe it was the reason why his life has been so inspiring for many people in the world right now. In between birth and death, he always 'needed' others. He invested in human family. He invested in people. He built his own community filled with the people he loves and who love him as well.

And with this upcoming exam? I tie up (or fortify the ties) with the people around me for my sources of encouragement, hope, courage and strength.

I hope and pray that everything will just go smoothly on Sunday. This will be a test of faith.

The battle is the Lord's!

Banged head

Few days left and it will the Licensure Examination for Teachers and I still haven't reviewed.

Right after graduation, I was really eager to review for the board exam - that'll be on the 26th of this month - so I could pass at the first take. But because of unexpected incidents last summer and as the new school year started, I accepted job opportunities along the way - like the recently concluded fieldwork. It was due to my excitement to earn as soon as possible.

In my previous post, I told you about the stuffs I made as tribute for my grandmother who's already history. After the burial, visitors came to ask me how much would it cost if I'd make some creatives (invitations, programs, tarp designing, cards and the like) for them. So, I thought, it would be a start of a small desktop publishing business for me and my family. We grabbed the opportunity to earn even just a little. It's already a big help for us anyway. But it came a prob for my review because we have pending orders. Besides, for now I'm the only one here at home who knows Photoshop.

It's somehow banging my head these days.

My outlook on Death and a Tribute for Lola

Death for our Christian family is a celebration - a celebration of life in eternity - and not mourning.

Well, yes, there were always be tears human as we are who were beautifully created with emotions. But we believe, God sees the meaning of each tear that we shed. Deep in it are the joys and thankfulness that once again another member of our family has been promoted to live in eternity face to face with the Lord in a place where there is no sadness, no pain, no grief, no violence, no selfishness but all pure sharing, happiness and love.

As tribute for my Lola who sacrificed a lot for her children and for all her grandchildren and great grandchildren, I made this photo montage with a colorful background signifying our assurance and bliss that Lola is now enjoying the most beautiful place with her long lost loved ones. I printed this in 7 by 3 feet tarpaulin and posted it in one of our walls here at home (Can't provide some pictures of the events here for now because I didn't have available cam. I'll still wait for my cousin to mail the pictures since he's already in Laguna now. I'll let you see the interment , which happened yesterday, 081107, and other photos then.)

To make a change in our culture's way of making programs for burial services, my family and I conceptualized the prints to make it more jovial, make it more colorful and more uplifting to make our guests and visitors change their outlook about death. We filled it with songs of praises and comfort on solos from my cousins, group singing of my uncles and aunties and choirs of the whole family. Partly musical, partly hilarious, partly sad.

It's printed in a 2.5 by 6 inches paper layout. The first page is on parchment with the "an appointment with the Lord" text, second page (the program) on specialty board and scented with my Lola's Avon powder and the last page (thank you note) is on specialty paper and tied it with a purple ribbon so it would look like a bookmark.

(Just click on the images for a better look.)

Yes, through that we can change the people's outlook on death. Apparently, most homo sapiens are scared of talking about that event but hey, it will come. No advancement in technology and medicine can ever avoid the cold touch of death.

My grandmother, who is a missionary and Lola's in-law, always reiterates the fact that most percentage of our life is waiting. We wait until we grow up, wait until you can finish your studies, wait until you find somebody to love and then to get married. You wait until your first, second, third and last child, wait until they grow up and you to grow older. And suddenly, wait until somebody will gonna wipe your own ass and wait until death.

That gives me the reason to enjoy the process while I am young. Knowing that we can't bring our diplomas, certificates and awards in heaven, I enjoy the process through wrapping my life with interaction and affection. This is because there is only one thing that you can bring up with you - your character.

-sigh- I'll miss Lola as how I miss my father.

Who says religion can't be funny?

See you in the morning Lola

-whew-

Finally! I'm done with the do-this-survey-or-i'll-damn-you thing during the past week. It has been a "calvary" and a "pressure cooker" activity that I got to exhaust every minute and every second when I was there in the field.

I mean, it wasn't my project coordinator who was pressuring me or the whole research team but it was just the thought that I don't want to compromise my accepted activity and my accepted tasks and responsibilities.

By the way, how's everyone? I really want to thank you for visiting me by and by. The sparing of your time to click on my blog is really lifting my spirit. I didn't imagine my blog to deserve visits and comments like what I've received even though I wasn't here for several days. So, thank you thank you and thank you to those who visited, commented, left a word, gave updates on their blogs, gave suggestions, left farts and flooded my shoutbox. ;) j/k

Friday, August 3, 2007

Upon arriving home with great hopes that I can give my grandmother (the one I'm nursing at home) a good smile because I'm carrying her requested 'biscocho' from the Iloilo's Biscocho House, I was stunned with this site in our sala.

My grandmother died early morning that Friday and pandemonium sulked in my heart.

I've been praying to God to extend my grandma's life so I can still have the opportunity to bring back what she has sacrificed for us since the time we (my siblings and I) were born. Her sacrifices on taking good care of our baby lives years back, the sacrifice of waking up early each morning to cook our breakfast when we were schooling, her sacrifices when we were sick, her sacrifices when we wanted some snacks, her sacrifices to give us joy, compassion and love.

I will miss every moment I spent with lola. I will miss her smile, her laughs, her talks about her experiences, her talks about her travels and jaunts when she was young, I will miss the times when she was stealing some time to clean up my scalp with ticks and louses.

Anyway, I believe she has already the greatest joy up there in heaven with the Lord cooking for her friends and family with her golden cooking utensils and titanium wares. Serving food with her diamond plates and cups. Offering her delicious menus with sincerity, thoughtfulness and love.

I will miss you lola. I love you so much. See you in the morning.